As January comes to an end… So much has already happened, that has changed my life in a major way. I feel like at this point I don’t even know how to handle it. Now I’ve always been the type of girl to look at the bright side, but what if I no longer can. I try to seem like everything is okay, people see me smiling and happy, yet in the inside I’m slowly breaking down. That’s why I think I find comfort in sleeping.. b/c lately being asleep is better than dealing with reality. It’s also very unusual for me to just talk about my feelings to people. I know it’s good to get it all out of your chest, but who actually really cares to listen. Mostly all people do is judge you anyway. I really don’t know what to do at this moment, so I guess I’ll just go to sleep…
Reasons why I don’t like when I like someone…
- Once they know you like them or have some sort of interest in them, they don’t know how to act.
- All the cute morning, random text messages & phone calls stop. (well they become more noticeable to you.)
- You never know what’s going on … I don’t like to be the one to bring up the “So are we talking?” .. “Is this relationship going anywhere?” type questions. Even though I REALLY want to KNOW! badly.
- They are all lovey dovey, but then in public is a different story… which confuses the hell out of me !
- All of my feelings get too involved & I hate it.
Basically … It’s Stressful when I actually like someone. B/c I don’t like the whole “not knowing” feeling, and I end up confused as hell.
I still feel this way till this day. That’s probably why I’m not even trying to be in a relationship at all right now. I don’t have the time.
There is a point in every girls life, where they want to be a singer. Today, I listened to a song a did back in ‘05… LOL ! What the hell was a thinking?? It was turrible!!
Well my singing was… Overrall the song was good though. haha.
This weekend has been beyond boring… I have a couple shoots coming up soon, so I’m very excited about that. I hate being in the house all day. Blahhh. -__-
A funny story…
My Uncle Tachy went to visit his brother Bebe in Auburn Hills a couple of months ago.. My Cousin Joe is a big pot head. My Uncle Tachy went with my cousin to the neighbors house, which is where he usually smokes because My Uncle Bebe is super Religious and doesn’t know my cousin smokes… Anyway, My Uncle Tachy wanted to smoke to see what it was like.. lol. He’s like 30+ years old and never smoked so he was tripping. When they went back to the house, My Uncle Bebe asked him what was wrong with him and he told him the neighbors poisoned him. Now my Uncle Bebe hates the neighbors. LMAO!
